One year
Posted on June 24, 2006 - Filed Under Adult swim
Well, it has offically been 365 days since I have smoked a cigarette. I haven’t even taken a puff of one. I cannot say, however, that I quit for myself. I quit for Maggie. I cannot say that it has been easy either. The first 6 months after I quit, I had numous dreams about smoking - dreams so vivid and sometimes humorous that the women I worked with looked forward to hearing about my crazy addiction dreams. I would dream about smoking a whole pack of cigarettes coupled with a bunch of bud light beers at a bar. Once, I even got into a fist fight with some women over a cigarette. The good thing about these dreams was that I would always wake up refreshed. Even though I have quit smoking for an entire year, I still crave a cigarette and can actually remember how a Marlboro light tastes.
For those of you who have never smoked or who have never been addiction to a substance, you cannot begin to understand what it is like to quit. What I know from experience is that some people have no problem quiting smoking even after being a smoker for years. Others, like me, fight the urge each day - and if we are lucky, we will have a couple days go by without thinking about one.
People ask me if I will ever go back to smoking. What I say to them is “Not today.” It’s not that I am planning to go back to cigarettes, just that I can deal with the addiction better if I take it one day at a time. So please don’t send your congratulations - at least not yet.
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good for Maggie making you quit even if it is one day at a time. Certainly this is better than to keep smoking. Your father and I are proud of you.