The monkey-me
Posted on September 10, 2006 - Filed Under Uncategorized
I feel like it’s been forever since I have written anything…only since the 3rd I guess. Anyway, the last week has been kind of wierd for me in a lot of respects. With regard to blog writing, it’s felt as though I have been incredibly busy but when I look around at what I am doing, there isn’t a lot, certainly not enough to keep me from writing. I think the explanation might be in the fact that I am completely disoriented by not having the family here and because I know life is turning upside down due to the move. By that I mean that I am out of my element. I have noticed that when I am in that situation, I kind of act like an animal: I sort of crouch down, back into a corner, and wait for things to unfold. Don’t get me wrong–I get done what needs done but I generally don’t do many of the things which make up my normal routine, things that, if ignored, aren’t going to cause a major impact. Another example is laundry: I really need to do some…I am on my last set of clean clothes. But as far as impact, it has been minimal.
I think this practice comes out of my thinking that when it is critical you focus all of your attention on one thing and that thing might come along quite unexpectedly, you reserve yourself for facing that task. Do everything you need to do but don’t waste energy on the non-essentials. I suppose this way of thinking might not be the best but it seems to work for me. Kind of wierd, though, how it is really close to the way an animal acts. I think the common way of referring to it is ’survival instinct.’ When threatened, an animal will concern itself simply with getting by; thriving can wait. I tease myself (and Maggie sometimes, too) that I fell out of the tree (in an evolutionary sense) only a few short generations ago. I don’t mind that so much, as long as these two or three black hairs I have growing on my back don’t begin multiplying and sending me back to a place where I also physically resemble my non-human primate self. Behaviors and habits are one thing but physical appearence is something else entirely.
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